Excuse my rambling. I have guests in from out of town (the nice thing about living in Vegas) and we've been drinking.
I am bowling. My 'best' sport ever. I am a self-professed loser in bowling. Hold on a minute while I put the lane bumpers up....
OK. I'm back.
It's only the third frame and I'm already out of the running. It's not that I am that far behind. I am close. But I can feel the lead getting bigger.
Much like my life in triathlon:
I am coming off the bike and onto the run and while I feel good, they feel better. I know they do. I can feel their power. This is 'their' game. It's all I can do, to make it to the mile marker.
I can run a 10 minute mile, they'll run 9:30. I run a 9:30 they'll run 9's. Just enough to stay in sight but far enough out of reach to make a sprint pointless.
That's OK. I am getting used to this. This is my genetic/physical lot in triathlon.
I don't mind this. I used to. It used to drive me crazy. I have hated this sport because of this. But I am getting better. I have "redefined what victory means".
Despite what my race results say, I am getting better. I run with a new; better; faster crowd. And yes, they will beat me. Be it a mile or minute.
But I don't care. I have learned that this is for me. I am out to beat myself.