Friday, October 23, 2009

Ignosce mihi, Pater, quia peccavi

Forgive me father, for I have sinned.


It has been 66 days since my last blog. It’s not because I haven’t wanted to blog. I have. In fact every time I work out I think of what I am going to say but inevitably once I get back home I feel that I can’t post yet because I didn’t post the workout before that, and the one before that and the one…So finally I have thought that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! Just get it out and if it doesn’t make sense or is meaningless then oh well. I feel that I’ve got to get at least some of it out otherwise I will never post again because I have such a backlog. So here is my confessional:

I have biked a great many times. I have biked long and hard and repeatedly. I have biked in the wind and up hills. I have swore while biking, I have laughed while biking; I have surrendered more than once and called for a ride while biking. Please forgive me.

I have ran a few times. Not nearly as much as I have biked. I have biked 4 to 5 times as much as I have ran. I still loathe running. I still enjoy running (but only after loathing it first). I have not run for very long but I have started to run faster. I still suck at running. Please forgive me.

I have not swam! Whew! Well ok, I have swam but only a few times and even when I did I didn’t want to, so that doesn’t count right? I have swam in the gym pool back and forth until I have lost count and knowing that it was not enough, I have swam even longer. I have not even SEEN the lake since early summer! I am not even sure I know how to put on a wetsuit! Please forgive me.

I have thought the thoughts of a Triathlete. I have thought about biking and running and (occasionally) swimming. I have friends (YES! I do have friends 1 and 2) who have wisely chosen to enjoy their off season, but I have found that I cannot stop working out. Everyday I take off from working out, I feel like a lazy slug! I feel like I am losing fitness with every breathe. Somewhere out there some one is getting faster than me (which is not hard to do!). I become grumpy and moody when I don’t work out. Please forgive me.

I have signed up for races that I am vastly underprepared for (just my style). I have no fear. I know they will suck and I don’t care. I am ready to suffer. I am looking forward to it. The insanity is overwhelming. Please forgive me.

I have abandoned all thoughts of P90X, almost as soon as I posted my last blog post (the one that says I am “renewing my energy into it”). I just couldn’t do it. Not yet. I don’t really have an off season, and every day that I wasn’t riding the bike or doing something cardio intense, I felt like I was loosing my (limited) fitness. I know the benefits to weight lifting are huge, but I just could justify it during training season. Perhaps I’ll pick it up next off season (if I ever get one). Please forgive me.

OK. I think that is it. Or at least all that I am willing to confess to at this moment. Thanks for hearing my confession.

7 comments:

SWTrigal said...

You are forgiven my son-you had a BABY!!

Bootchez said...

If you need to be forgiven for all of the above, then surely I am going to hell. I have done (perhaps am still doing) ALL of the above. Well, swap the running sins for the biking sins, and I am THERE. Do we really need all that swimming practice anyway? I say NO! (until raceday dawns, then I'm all Why o why didn't I swim more?)

Plus, all that becoming-a-father stuff makes a really fantastic excuse!

Welcome back. C'mon in, the water's warm. Well, the water is probably cold, but it's good to hear your voice again.

Stef said...

I'm enjoying my time off training a little TOO much -- but the flip side of that is I have 2010 planned already.

It's incomprehensible to me the changes that a baby brings to your life. Nothing wrong with going with the flow, or taking a break from blogging, as long as you are happy.

You are forgiven for nothing. Nothing to be forgiven for. I AM glad you are back to blogging though and hope you keep it up.

WADDLER26.2 said...

Forgiven for everything...

S. Baboo said...

At least your working out. A lack of blogging is easily forgiven. Glad to see you seem well.

ShirleyPerly said...

I forgive you :-)

Not that I always listen to myself, but I think it's good to have some down time where you don't feel guilty about not training. But, that is not the same as not working out entirely. The latter you do to just stay sane and not turn into a pumpkin, right?

JohnnyTri said...

yahoo!!! a Blog update!!